Clumsy Enough To Fall for Anything.

"Why can't I just meet ONE NORMAL GUY"

I am in love with love, quite frankly I'm starting to think I'm addicted to it.
I let unemotionally available men pursue me in hopes of finding the right fit ( no pun intended) like shopping for shoes.Since the men I accept into my life,my time etc.. are very insecure; the relationship starts to deteriorate within a very short period of time. I try to save it feeling guilty for being way too good for them (yawn) and end up fucking them up worse than before.I do not take pride in doing this but I'd like someone different PLEASE fairy godmother, throw me a bone already.

Yes, I've had my heart broken. Yes, I've cried but at the end of the day I'm just like ehhhh
so what?I'm I bitch? possibly, maybe. I want Aphrodite to throw me a curve ball before I get bored and start my career as a crazy cat lady.

Sincerely,

Moi

You sneaky little devil.

blank pages unravel before me.
what I'm I looking for here again
the person that was does not exists anymore
a blank page is here now and she is
Shunned
from the
reality
so forth
really tired
of talking so much

at last my true love has come along
my lonely days are over and life is like a song


My father was right
and my mom even more

oh yea yea at last
the skies above are blue
my heart was wrapped up in clover the night I looked at you

The dream has always been there
the dream that I could call my own

caress my cheek and grab my hair gently
I ask for nothing else

and here we are in heaven

Seduction is a disease

Hello Journal.

I'm still alive. My head is in worst of a mess than before.
The money's better,the body is stronger.
I miss concerts.I'll be going to Mana on Wednesday.
Toodles.

mami,porque no me quieres?

Sup
Been busy etc

Organizing concert for benefit,you know because of the Hurricane that destroyed like 3 states
10 bands or so
audio,visual madness

ugh I hate dealing with bands,long story
thank goodness for my baybay Luci that networking beast

all money will go to charity
need to book venue
wristbands

stress
le fin

and I know my journal is a month in advance

This journal is friends only.
Tell me why I should add you.



Thanks to Alex for the FOB.
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I suppose that’s where she’s imprisoned herself
to write all those words she’s too scared to tell
those sad, short stories of a girl curled up in her shell.


never the end


never the beginning

Why I'm I so fucking afraid?

Currently Downloading

Narciso Yepes
Tutty Moreno
Seu Jorge
Curtis Mayfield
Capital Inicial

now I just need a cup of coffee and I'll be set

also, comment anonymously please and write something nice?

Why is the bedroom so cold
Turned away on your side?
Is my timing that flawed,
our respect run so dry?
Yet there's still this appeal
That we've kept through
our lives





Love, love will tear us apart again

Too almost like perfection to tarnish with words
This night is one of realization.
Almost like a first kiss
or a fog morning of ominous doom.
............

she never ceases to amaze me.

The Rival

If the moon smiled, she would resemble you.
You leave the same impression
Of something beautiful, but annihilating.
Both of you are great light borrowers.
Her O-mouth grieves at the world; yours is unaffected,

And your first gift is making stone out of everything.
I wake to a mausoleum; you are here,
Ticking your fingers on the marble table, looking for cigarettes,
Spiteful as a woman, but not so nervous,
And dying to say something unanswerable.

The moon, too, abuses her subjects,
But in the daytime she is ridiculous.
Your dissatisfactions, on the other hand,
Arrive through the mailslot with loving regularity,
White and blank, expansive as carbon monoxide.

No day is safe from news of you,
Walking about in Africa maybe, but thinking of me.

-Sylvia Plath

This is what goes on at silly South Beach clubs like Nikki Beach.

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/idiot

not really,this flash thing always makes me laugh.

>>

you were always trampling pavement back then
words were elusive
and scarce

i fell behind
loudly proclaiming
the fortunes of strangers

you flew over them even then
they always knew you were meant for it
you looked in the mirror and thought so too

i watched you fade in the distance
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I hate silence
even after making love
I hate making love with music on
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Alright so I need to get Alex's number soon
and I think that's all of my update
I have Brit's number and I miss her silly ass
<3333333333 >>

I'm going to Chinatown tomorrow or something
I'm broke as fuck
I have just enough money to go to the concert and that's it

*prays for money to rain from the sky*

This week is going to be busy.
Today-Go to show at Senor Frogs
Tuesday-Pick up shit from my dad's house to take to my sister.Pack,buy cigarettes because apparently they're $7.00 a pack in New York.
Wednesday-Remember to breathe as I get on the airplane.

I want to go shopping on Wednesday and hug my mom for an hour.

My icon repulses me but it's so rad,you cant deny it.

So i'm here listening to Placebo,and alot of the Faint.I'm happy,people telling me they miss me.
I miss NY and I love life.I want to enrich it,make it tasty.Dont know how i'll accomplish that though.

moons of long ago,try to lift me up from here
and i'll sing a song for you
I'll try to hover over you life
and give you all of mine.

lets change the world just you and I.

I want to get a paid account so I can do phone posts into my writing journal.
All the poetry would be spoken.
I recorded myself singing today,not as bad as I thought.
I'm afraid of going to NY and my plane crashing,turbulence is a motherfucker.
11 days until The Bamboozle.
I've been listening to Ask obsessively,it cannot be healthy.

"Shyness is nice and
Shyness can stop you
From doing all the things in life
You'd like to"

So Friday I went to MCR/Green Day.I was really surprised with Green Day.My seats were horrible,probably the worst but I didnt care.I rocked out just the same.Venus and Serena Williams were in the floor dancing like fools.It was amsusing.During Green Day Bob was the only one that was watching.A man in a bunny suit came out,I got a picture,bunies have special significance.I didnt stick around to meet anyone,though it looked easy,I just didnt want to be bothered.

Saturday it was Guille's birthday,his legal birthday.Naturally we went to a kareoke bar.We had a few beers but didnt get drunk.I sang I'm Not Ok to a clueless crowd,Ruben sang "Turn the Page","Mack the Knife" and another song I cant remember.My boyfriend sang two spanish songs I cant even remember.

Best song selection by a random person "Gangsters Delight"
They kept mentioning how they held auditions for the movie "Miami Vice" there.Lame.
Then the band that plays with James Brown did a few songs,but they sucked.

We left at 5 am and stayed over Rubens house.

Sunday we went to his parents house for birthday cake and whatnot.He was all excited because he got a Spider Man cake.We watched Gojoe and The Incredibles,which had underlying sexual messages as I am convinced alot of Disney movies do.

Monday-We did shit
Today - We went to dinner at Dave and Busters and tricked the waiter with a fake credit card..he laughed but I think he flipped us off when we left.I had a yummy pina colada.

I'm leaving for NY in a few days.I'm excited.